45 Lbs less of me!

Today I went to my weigh in and I lost 3.4 lbs...I made my 10% at Weight Watchers and I also reached 45 lbs....5 lbs short of my goal of 50 lbs by Halloween....ok so it is 5 lbs not a double digit so I am ok with that....close but no cigar.

I am very excited to see this weight going bye bye. I have my mom coming into visit this weekend from Florida and I keep thinking I want her to take me shopping but I think I want to wait to get clothes until I am even less. Although I do need a few pieces so we might do some shopping.

So where do I stand? I am 268 lbs it sounds so good compared to 313 but still 268 is big. I keep telling myself that it didn't come on over night so I am working with that in mind. I know it will come off....I need to keep some things up....
Following my points which went down with this weight loss
Exercise
Make wise food choices

Speaking of exercise I am doing this program couch to 5k. I have started running in the gym on the treadmill. I tell ya it is that first step being scared to take it. I did it and I have lived to tell it. I have been running on it for about 2-3 weeks. I don't run long not a mile or anything I time it in minutes. I have also run down the road by my house....I was scared of critters coming out and I decided to run...it was great motivation!!! I am not sure that I will ever be a runner it is not something I have ever wanted to be actually but I could see myself getting into weight training. I do enjoy working on my muscles and feeling the burn ;)

I will tell you what my mom said when she sees me. She last saw me at my highest weight when I had my son. The son who will never remember having a fat mother.

I promise I am Skinny Under My Fat!

The shrinking woman....

Here I am 16 inches smaller!

43 pounds lighter!

Top picture is from 3 days ago....bottom one is at my highest weight 313 lbs.

OK I decided since I was feeling like crap to measure myself maybe that will pick me up here is where I stand

Measurements: Sept 22, 2008

Calf 20 inches

Arm 14 inches

Thigh 30 inches

Waist 59 inches

Bust 48 inches

Measurements: October 25, 2008

Calf 18.5 inches -1.5

Arm 12.5 inches -1.5

Thigh 26 inches -4

Waist 55 inches -4

Bust 43 inches -5

16 inches lost!!!

What am I doing?

I have no idea why but I can't stop eating. I just want to eat and eat. I want to work out still but I am so hungry. I am trying to stay on point but it is so hard. I feel like I need to eat everything in the house to get rid of it and than start with a bare house. I wish that my family would all be on board and all be trying to diet and eat healthy. Erik really needs to and my oldest DD could stand to lose 5 lbs or so.

I am still fitting in smaller clothes which is good but at this rate I will be back up!
ughhh

WHY OH WHY couldn't I be one of those people that are born skinny and stays skinny?

Weigh In Today not so great

This is me above in a size 14-16 top and it is not skin tight!

This is me in a MEDIUM yes you read that right MEDIUM Tank top from Kmart they had a .99 sale and I went and bought clothes for the next summer and it fit it is a bit shorter than what I would wear so when I lose the weight I am sure it will be perfect!

I thought I would be up it has been a rough week. I have been fighting with Erik, Zoe has been driving me insane, and I just didn't really stick to the points this week....oh and I only worked out 5 times this week. So I need to get my ass in gear and work out more.

I need to stick to the points plan.

I lost 4 oz........but I DIDN'T GAIN!

So I am happy I didn't gain and happy to get the kick in the rear and get myself smaller. I want to have a huge week next week I just have to!

I spent the day shopping

I went shopping today from 1030am until 6pm at night. I was all over and loved every minute of it. First I went to Avenue they have a 18.00 sale on pants so I wanted to see what fit. I fit into a 16 I LOVED THAT! It was great to be able to get into them. I tried on a 14-16 top it was adorable but it was 39.99 and I am not paying full price for clothes while I lose weight. Than I went and got another top on clearance and my boobs are so big from breastfeeding still that it looked awkward. I want big boobs but they need to be my normal size so I can wear cute shirts.

Next went to Old Navy I think it was the sweetheart jean not sure they have so many I fit into a 18 tight but they were on and............IT WAS MY FIRST TIME IN OLD NAVY IN THE LADIES DEPT SHOPPING FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I always went right back to kids it was nice shopping in a regular store for me! I was having so much fun I bought a L and XL tank top dressy style for Disney. I got the XL on at home and it fit the L is snug I will have them taken in cause I only paid 99 cent for each shirt...........I love clearance in Old Navy!!!

After that I went to Kohls and got a cute XL top from the misses dept on clearance for 7.80 loved that! It was cute and I figure when I lose weight I can wear it for a swimwear coverup. The kids were running around like maniacs so we didn't last long in Kohls.

Finally we went to Cato and I got 3 new tops. Long sleeves for the winter and I went in and went to the plus size found cute tops 11.99 ok get a few of those see XL no 14-16 so I grab that and go for another color and get 18-20 cause I don't see XL. Well I got a pile that should have been in the Misses section yep yet again fit in the Misses section and went to the "other side" and got the XL in those shirts.

I had so much fun shopping spent less than 50.00 today on clothes! But got I think 8 tops!
Catch ya later!

Down 42 lbs in 3 months!!!!

I wasn't sure what to expect at this weigh in today and I was shocked! I lost 4.4 lbs! I am so excited. I got my 25 lb charm. Next week I hope to get my 10% keyring. I told everyone in the meeting of something that I did and I wanted to share it here.

Mya is a gymnast and Mikayla is a cheerleader they asked me could I do a kartwheel. I said back in the day yea...than I thought why not try it. Man it seems high from 5 foot 2 compared to 3 foot 2 when I was a kid throwing myself around in my grandmother's front yard. I looked at my husband and said do you think I will break a arm? He said no I said what than both arms? He said NO. I did it the kids laughed but my legs were not straight I wanted to get it right! I did it one more time and got scared and I stubbed my toe but I completed the rotation. I shared with everyone in the meeting I am doing this for my kids. When it all comes down to it my kids are my life. I am doing this so I can be healthy and be with them for a long long time. I want to be the fun mom with my kids who can keep right up with them.

I came home and Mikayla knew what today was and said how much mom? I said 4.4 lbs she has no idea what that is but she still was cheering mommy lost 4.4 lbs! Mya told me good job mom! I know that this time it is going to work I am going to be a skinny mom and Jalen will never know his mom as fat....obese.....chubby.....skinny challenged

My goal is to have 3.4 weeks for the next 2 week so I can be down 50 lbs since July 12 OMG I can't even believe I am saying that. Can you imagine from 313 to 260 something in this short amount of time?

I continue to exercise 2x a day. I also stay on point with WW as I am doing the flex program. After I get into the 100's I will do the core so I can retrain myself completely off of frozen meals and eat normally for the 1st time in my life with regular food just the right portion. Portion control is where it is at for me I have to learn that!

Over 4 Miles

I did it I walked over 4 miles today in 70 minutes!!! I am so excited. I wasn't even tired I would have done more but I had to get home. Walking away the pounds. I plan on walking some more this week and than going to the gym at night. I need to get to my 10% this month I MUST! I also have with WW 4 more lbs to lose to get to my 25 lbs lost. I have started before joining WW on this diet and it is working! I can't wait to post a new picture of myself as I am getting smaller!

Goodbye LB, Avenue, Plus size departments

The time has come to say goodbye. I have been your loyal customer for way to many years. This past week I took a turn and it was to the right side of the store....the misses department and NOT THE PLUS SIDE on the left. I WILL NEVER GO BACK! I have waited for this day for many years....probably about 20 years oh heck even more sadly I am sure. I have some new friends in new places, Old Navy, Cato, Fashion Bug, Limited, Target and my favorite Kohl's to name a few. I won't go back. I have been told that skinny tastes good....I am sure it does but at the moment I can say size 18 tastes good and I want to get smaller and smaller.

I have never had a style of my own it was always what the store had that fit me. I will be able to have my own style! Some days I think I want to be business casual in nice pants, a button down top and nice shoes. Other days I think nice jeans, cute tops, and boots. Than I think about summer I picture lots of sun dresses and cute sandals. I want to get a whole new haircut when I get to my goal size of a 6 or maybe a 8 depending on how I look.

I wonder if because I am going to have less fabric in the clothes if I can fit more in the closet? I am going to have a new addiction SHOPPING!

I love how size 18 tastes I can smell the 16 coming on over. I bet it tastes even better!

Why doesn't anyone notice?

Today we were at a festival in town and we saw some people we knew and no one said anything to me about losing weight. I am down 37 pounds and no one says anything. My friends who are also dieting with me one is down 62 lbs the other is in the same range as me we think (she hasn't stepped on the scale at all in the process) and people were telling them how good they look and how they came down in weight. What about me? Can they not tell because I am so big?

I went to work out last night I rode the bike for 25 minutes and did 4 miles and some change. I walked a mile on the treadmill in 25 minutes and did 10 minutes on the eliptical machine. I love working out in the gym. I feel so much better afterwards and I love sweating. I can't believe I am even saying that. But I love getting into smaller clothes. I love seeing my old clothes get bigger and bigger on me.

No one might notice at this point but I can assure you give me 2 more months and they will notice. I plan on being down 50 pounds total by than.

My goals

End of October 268 and fit in a size 16

End of November 258

End of December 248

End of January 238

End of February 228-I was around this weight in the picture above. But I was wearing a 16-18 at this point. My body has changed shape it is so bizarre. How I can weight as much as I do currently and I am in the same size. That or clothes just got bigger in size ranges.

This time next year I plan to be at my goal weight of 130 lbs.

Size 18....oh what a feeling

Ok so I had my weigh in on Thursday I was only down 1 pound but I must be up in muscle. I am not upset because I went to Cato a store here in town and tried on clothes after WW. I fit in a size 18 pants and 14-16 top. Here are some pics of me in the size 18 pants and I had the size 14-16 top on in pink and the blue top in the bottom pick is a 1x.

My WORST Pictures

My two kids together are smaller than me...... OMG is that my stomach????????
Right here give me a kiss baby.....Thank God he sees my sense of humor and loves me beyond my fat.....he knows I am skinny under my fat.
Maybe this dress makes me look fat so many of my dreaded pics are in this dress. I guess this is my moomoo dress. I will burn this dress one day....I just wore it yesterday and it is so big on me already.....

My worst pictures....I can't wait to start posting new pictures where I look HOT!

Down 6.6 in 1 Week!!!!

May my son never remember his mother was fat.......

I lost 6.6 lbs this week. That is the exact size my son Jalen was when he was born 2 months 2 weeks 6 days ago! Total down 36 lbs in 2 1/2 months! I am so excited and I am so motivated. I realize that 6 lbs is not going to happen weekly but I am on my way to a size 8-10-12 whatever I end up as long as it isn't plus size. I went thru my closet today i took out size 22 clothes they were tight 22 fit good. 28 makes me look fatter than I am cause they are so big. 26 is loose on me and 24 is a good fit.

We are busy planning our Disney vacation and I can't tell you how excited I am to go to Disney in my dress I bought in size 16! I can't wait to wear it and have it fit!