tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57925488125264759622024-03-05T08:23:25.953-08:00Skinny under my fatOne woman's journey to go from a size 26/28 to a 8/6. One day at a time.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.comBlogger153125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-24219371972692709292014-03-20T09:35:00.001-07:002014-03-20T09:35:10.717-07:001 year Later<p dir="ltr">So it has been one year and 2 days since I had gastric bypass. Have I followed every rule? No am I happy YES! I am not at goal. I am down to 198 and fit in a 12 I am very happy. I am going to start logging my working out here.<br>
Today week 3 day 1 of couch to 5k. I am going to start working out more to get rid of these last 48 lbs. I think that is what I need to lose to get into a size 8 my goal size. <br>
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So I go and check in I am the first one of the day. The 1st nurse she got me in my little cubicle and told me lay down take everything from the waist up off. Asked did I have any piercings etc. I said no next a new nurse came in who I thought would be my nurse in all I had 4 nurses....so many nurses just for a tube down my throat! So she took my blood set up my IV....holy crap this chick was half way in my arm with the needle (did I ever tell you I had 4 kids naturally because I am scared of IV's and needles?) and says do you need a blood draw? I said ummm I don't know. She calls to another nurse who comes in looks at my chart and says I don't know she is so young I don't see anything on her chart....at this point blood is pooling down my arm and she keeps wiping it away. Finally I take charge and say ummm look take the vial and blood and lets get this done with I am in pain here. So she does does it and tapes it all down. They said after that my husband could come in. Well the next Anesthesia guy comes in he is not very friendly and when I joke about the proporal that they are going to give me and Michael Jackson he says we know how to use it! Ok buddy I hope so....he leaves another nicer one comes in asks me questions and I ask him please make sure I am asleep I have heard nightmare stories. He tells me look I am going to put something in your IV and you are going to sleep for about 5 minutes no breathing tubes needed you will be asleep almost like General but just shy of it. He said I won't remember a thing or feel a thing. I said ok I am trusting you. My surgeon comes in and asks how I am doing and gives me a high 5. I inform him since I am here lets do the bypass he said we are not set up in the room for that LOL. Everyone leaves still no hubby who was suppose to be let in after the IV. So I tell the nurse as she walks by I want my husband he comes in we have a few words and they are here to pick me up. I say bye to him and they wheel me to the room. I don't like being wheeled laying down I felt sick! I said I wouldn't throw up but man it was a weird feeling. I get into the room 2 new nurses are putting the back of the bed up and telling me lay on my side....really I do this almost sitting up? The sleep dr love him! He puts on my air tubes in my nose for back up air and says close your eyes this thing is huge on you I need to snip some. I close my eyes and he says ok Michelle we are going to get started I just put the medicine in your IV. I see the Dr coming close to my face with the tube and I think holy crap he is going to do this and I am not asleep. The sleep dr says take deep breaths. I tell myself keep your eyes open looking at that clock so he won't go into your mouth while your eyes are open. Well I didn't even get to 2 I was counting in my head I was out and woke up in what seemed like a few minutes later in another room and my husband and surgeon were next to me. Everything went well and surgery is a go!<br />
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I can't believe I was so scared. I have to say I don't think I could do this in the dr office if I need to be scoped I might just pass out. They did say my stomach is inflammed so they did take a biopsy but they said it was nothing to worry about. He said it was gastroentitis....I say it was make more moneyitis. LOL <br />
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I got my discharge papers and my pictures for my mantle....umm ok no just to show the kids how cool my stomach is. The kids asked if I took the meds and was going to be skinny all of a sudden. They seemed shocked when I explained no they are going to cut my stomach and make it really small this was not the surgery itself this a just a exam to make sure my stomach was ok.<br />
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Came home sucked up to the hubby how tired I was and watched tv in bed all day while taking naps on and off. I am having a hard time dealing with dinner while on my liquid diet. I had to walk away and let them cook and try to stay away from the smell. Downside not eating with my family for sometime....upside my daughter is learning to cook. He let her make the rice and sausage last night with his help. She was so proud. I was proud I made it and didn't shed a tear.<br />
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Bring on the bypass I am so ready for it!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-27013610834382099392013-03-02T12:20:00.002-08:002013-03-02T12:20:40.942-08:00Before Pics and StatsI started my liquid diet on the 1st. <br />
4 Protein Shakes a day for 30 days.<br />
1st 2 weeks I can do one small high protein meal and veggies. NO CARBS<br />
SF Jello and Ice Pops and Broth are allowed.<br />
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I weigh 299.2 goal to lose 15 lbs in pre op on the liquid diet.<br />
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The pants are drawstring pants that the string came out of and to be honest they are more comfy that way. They are from Walmart Danskin 2XL. The top is from Kohls it is a XL in the Ladies Department. It used to fit me before I gained the weight back.</div>
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Goal to be a size 8 Medium Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-47461339013745081502013-03-02T09:27:00.002-08:002013-03-02T09:27:20.390-08:00I AM BACK!!!Well I have neglected this blog for long enough. I have been battling with my weight and not winning for the last year. Surgery has been approved I go for a endoscopy on Monday at 6am and Surgery will be March 25th. One day after my daughters 11th bday. I said mommy can light your candles but I can't eat your cake. I am on a liquid diet for a month yes you read that right A MONTH!!! Darn it I better lose some weight in this month. I want to lose 15 lbs that is my goal. So I went to Weight Watchers yesterday and weighed in at drum roll.....299.2 umm hello where did that motivated woman go from 2 years ago who believed she could so anything?<br />
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So after surgery life is going to be so different....well not much different from today since I will be on a liquid diet for at least 2 weeks after surgery followed by pureed and after that onto soft foods introducing solids slowy. I know your jealous right? But I am taking this opportunity to find myself to really find the SKINNY UNDER MY FAT. I know that a skinny mom is under here and she is a beast she is fierce and she can kick some butt. Craving yes I said craving lifting weights and I can't wait to get the clearance from the Dr to do it after surgery. I am going to start up back in the gym today....yes I quit.....and get some heart pumping workouts in before surgery. So I quit the gym in November to save money for the surgery and because I felt like ok the surgery is going to happen I won't be able to work out....well my friend called and said membership is going up so if you want your old rate come join. I went in 2 hours later! <br />
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Some people have come forward after I publicly finally stated on FB that I was doing surgery and tried to talk me out of it. I am so glad they did that it showed how much they cared about me and were worried for me. I am worried myself but I am more worried if I don't do this surgery where I will end up. Either way it isn't pretty.<br />
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I have begun cleaning out my closet and cleaning and organizing the house it is a lot like nesting. Only I am doing it in case heaven forbid I die my husband won't be left with a mess he has no idea what to do with. I told him this and he said yea I wouldn't want that so please clean and organize everything! LOL Thanks for the support honey I would have thought he might say don't worry you will be fine.<br />
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The surgeon I have selected is amazing. My friend pointed out he is not to bad to look at either so when I am going to sleep and after I wake up seeing him will be a nice sight HAHA. She calls him eye candy I say whatever you are have some skilled steady hands and help me on my way to skinny and healthy.<br />
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My CPAP machine has been out of commission I hate that thing it is sitting next to my bed collecting dust. I am going to bust it out tonight and start using it again. It can only help.<br />
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Later today I am going to post my before picture and goals. Hopefully I can come back to this post in a years time and not recognize the woman in the picture. Hopefully I can cross off some of the goals from the list too!<br />
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I will blog the rest of my journey here as a way to remember all that I had to do to get to the Loser's Bench! <br />
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Slowly finding the skinny under my fat!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-60172639978835394992012-04-21T13:33:00.000-07:002012-04-21T13:33:01.992-07:00Surgery Prep I Hope!!!!!So it is April 21, 2012 and I am on day 4 of my self impossed liquid diet. I am fearing that the GP won't approve me for the RNY this is my last appt I have and the insurance paper work can be submitted. April 27th they will submit the paperwork! You see month 1 I gained a lb on her diet. Month 2 I stayed the same but she saw changes in my body shape so she said do more cardio less weights. Month 3 I want to be down at least 10 lbs. Ugh I am trying. I am working out at the gym and following this liquid diet and I don't want to jinx it but my pants are feeling bigger and my tee shirt I am wearing at the moment doesn't require the good old pull it on and stretch it out around my belly today. LOL That is a plus and makes me hopeful I lost something. Hell with all the peeing I am doing I had to have lost something for the love of God!<br />
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My husband is off May 2-9 and my mom comes the 10-23 so we are hoping and praying my surgery will be in those dates. My patient rep said I could technically have surgery the last day of April if the paper work comes back. I have read the surgeon's paperwork and he doesn't seem to have a liquid diet before surgery just 1 day before clear liquids. But I am doing it anyway SHRINK LIVER SHRINK! I would be so mad if I had surgery and found out I had issues because of a swollen liver! My daughters have a dance recital on the 19-20 of the month so I really want to go to those. I am hoping I would have been out of the surgery by this point and at home and safely on the losers bench!<br />
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I have started a new cross addition but this one is fun. We don't have tons of excess money for a new wardrobe so I online shop well dream LOL. I have a closet full of 20-16 clothes so that should last me over the summer I would think and I will buy items at good will and on clearance for Fall and Winter. Plus I have some amazing weight loss friends who pass along clothes to me when they get to be to big so hopefully they will keep losing and I might get a few pieces from them or heck even be able to share while I shrink. So what I do is I save the pics to my PC and I have my husband look at them and tell me if he likes them. I actually will be able to dress cute for my husband and hopefully get some compliments along the way. He doesn't say much so hopefully I will knock his socks off and he will tell me how damn good I look LMAO.....he better!<br />
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Working out scares me after surgery so I am trying to get as much working out in that I can to start off in a better negative. I thought I would be able to do the treadmill a lot but it seems that it is better to walk on a non moving surface. So pounding the pavement it will be but it gets so damn hot here in NC I am going to have to go at 6am when I get in from work before the sun comes all the way up. I really want to be able to do a marathon in January. I want to do the Disney 20th anniversary marathon. I ran a half at 250 I figure if I can get to the 180's I will be comfy enough to do it. I know I can do it.<br />
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Tomorrow I think that I am going to get some boxes and box up my clothes well throw out the winter ones into the goodwill pile we have going in our garage. It is a two car garage we are lucky we can fit my little car I do the papers in into the garage. No way would 2 cars ever fit in our garage. The garage needs a diet too! LOL <br />
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Slowly but surely I am finding the damn skinny goddess under my fat! She is coming out and the world better watch out. Click on this for your listening pleasure! LOL<br />
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<a href="http://youtu.be/F-mjl63e0ms">I'm Coming Out all right....for your listening pleasure!</a>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-89422891057468466592012-03-22T10:31:00.002-07:002012-03-22T10:38:22.270-07:00RNY CHANGES OH MY!I am trying to live by the lifestyle after RNY Weight Loss Surgery but little things keep creeping up and I am like HOLY CRAP I forgot about that.<br /><br />I was very excited last night to tell my 2 x 1/2 marathon running friend Gina I will do the 1/2 at Virginia Beach it is the Rock and Roll Marathon Series. We so wanted to do one together but I posted on the WLS Support Board I am on and they were saying at 3 1/2 months out nutrition to live is key and that is going to be hard to get in enough at the beginning and train for a race. Plus the fluids as dehydration is common after surgery. So I am going to have to tell Gina I can't do this race with her but I can go and cheer her on and we can do the Princess Half in February at Disney together.<br /><br />This support board has been critical in my decision to get the surgery. I have found out that I will wake up in all likelyhood and I shouldn't be so scared of dying. This surgery has no more risk vs. gall bladder removal and I lived to tell that tale.<br /><br />The other change is Sugar/Carbs controlling those. Holy Cow to get those numbers right for the day is going to be a chore. The Nutritionist told me basically doing a modified Atkins diet that is what my life would be like after Gastric Bypass. I am excited to start that new life. I don't feel like a cheater or a quitter doing the surgery route. I know that I gave it my best in the exercise eating right area. I know that I could get the weight off too but I need that tool to curb my desires for the bad stuff. I am to scared to go against what my Dr tells me so this is what I needed.<br /><br />So today I am going to start training for my half marathon which in all honesty I would love to by next February be able to say I am going to do the full Marathon (but the half gets a cuter medal LMAO and it is all about the medal ;-) I plan on doing a half, full, half iron man and doing a full ironman by the time I am 40. I have only 2 years and a few months left I gotta get moving. So today I am off to the gym when my daughter gets home. I am going to run a 5k and I am excited about that!<br /><br />One day soon I will be peeling the fat and I will find the Skinny Under My Fat!<br />Dr. appt tomorrow to go over my Upper GI Test...who ever wants to have a scope down her throat ughhhh dreading it! But it is worth it for the end result!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-18987158964751200732012-03-19T09:31:00.002-07:002012-03-19T09:39:06.116-07:00A few things I am looking forward to...It is funny I look at life in the future these days. My friend is getting a divorce and she said in January when it is final we are going to party!! I said oh good by January I will be skinny well not all the way skinny but small enough to wear a cute denim skirt high boots and a nice top LOL. She said you are crazy I said no that is what I do think of what phase I will hopefully be at when that time comes.<br /><br />So a few of the things I can't wait to do or happen<br />-Dance Comps and Gymnastics Meets feel comfortable in my seat and not feel like I am taking up the person's next to me space<br />-Wearing a size Large and finally a Medium<br />-Being able to do a Zip Line<br />-Not having the seatbelt in our new car the base cuts into my thigh because my thigh goes over the small seat and rests on the seatbelt base it hurts like heck!<br />-Be able to see my toes just by looking down<br />-Able to sleep with my kids in the bunk beds we bought them and not fear they will come crashing down from my weight<br />-Sit with my legs crossed<br />-Sit at a table in a restaurant in a booth and not feel like I need to hold my breath to be able to fit<br />-Walking my girls into school the first day of school and see who notices how much weight I have lost<br />-Signing up for my first triathalon<br /><br />I can't wait to start living my new life. I have started to follow my post bariatric surgery food guidelines like my Nutritionist said. I eat 1000 calories a day and have 100g of Protein and I have to say with all the water and protein I don't feel hungry. I have to keep my food planner near me at all times so I know what to eat and when. I am sure it will become a second habit soon enough. The only bad part is the constant having to pee from drinking so much. Ugh that is not fun but hey if I am peeing out fat that is great with me!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-72793627009451739662012-03-06T08:59:00.002-08:002012-03-06T09:08:27.119-08:00Control and why do I have none?I am not scared of the surgery (well yet once it is booked I am sure I will be) but I am scared of food in my house after surgery. Look my kids aren't on this diet, my husband should be on a diet but it is his choice and he chooses not to be. But how can I control myself from eating the bad things in the house before surgery? I know after surgery I have a fear of my pouch like I fear God. I know if I eat the wrong thing I will get very sick and I could need surgery to fix what I messed up or worse yet die. I don't think I will have issues after surgery. I would never want to test my pouch with say a carbonated drink. What if mine is the one that explodes? Nope not worth it. I wouldn't want to eat a solid to soon because what if I tear a suture line? So not worth with it and I wouldn't know for awhile right I believe I could bleed out at least that is my fear and it is enough to make me not try it.<br /><br />So this is why I am so upset. On Sunday we went to BJ's and we love that store for all the wrong reasons. Big Blueberry Bakery muffins, best appetizers in the frozen section, and hello the packages are so much larger making me eat more and still have some left over for the family I don't really realize how much I consumed!<br /><br />I got on myfitnesspal.com yesterday and started logging away.<br />1 Blue Berry Muffin at 5am when I got home from work 540 calories<br />1 Blue Berry Muffin after the kids left for school 540 calories<br />1 Reese's Peanut Butter Cup ice cream treat to scared to look at the calories<br />1 cup of mini pretzels 180 calories<br /><br />I entered this into my fitness pal tracker and I was already over by 19 points on the sugar. I hadn't even had lunch yet! My calories left me with 220 for the day. So I threw in the towel made the tortellini we bought at BJ's that night and said tomorrow is a new day. Only thing is I have had a muffin, I had some cashews, and I had the tortellini for lunch. I am sure I am not over today but I just worry about the food in the house.<br /><br />My kids eat pretty healthy for the most part. Portion control, protein, veggie and a starch at dinner. We don't really do desserts if we do it is sugar free ice pops or jello. But yes we bought the Reese's Cup ice cream dessert because it had a coupon and who doesn't love a PB Cup?????<br /><br />I am going to clean out the pantry and fridge today. My husband told me to put the bad stuff at the top of the pantry out of sight out of mind....ummm I put the stuff away I will know it is up on the top self. But I am going to do it.<br /><br />I have my EAS Shakes, Greek Yogurt, Chicken Breast and fruit all ready to go but keep skipping over it for other bad food choices. Lord please help me to get on track. I don't want to go back to my Dr and have another visit where I don't lose some serious weight.<br /><br />Control I need to find it!!! Just as badly as I need to find the skinny under my fat!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-43712488993526163432012-02-25T12:29:00.002-08:002012-02-25T12:44:38.693-08:00What if I die?I have to admit I am going into this surgery knowing all the risks....well I say all but I am sure somei haven't heard about. But in my perfect surgery "dream" I will drift off asleep dreaming of my beautiful babies and husband waiting for me in the waiting room. I will be praying as much as I miss my grandma that I don't see her waiting for me. I just know when my time comes I will see her beautiful face welcoming me to heaven but my surgery day is NOT THAT DAY! In like 70 years ok but not my surgery day! I will wake up no tubes in me scared of that damn feeding tube and the nice nurse saying wake up Michelle you did great! I will feel around for a drain in my pain free body and ask her no drain? She will tell me no drain and I will feel great at the start of my new life.....AHHH THIS IS ALL A DREAM. <div><br /></div><div>In reality I could very well die in the operating room. I know that my spirit will fight to come back i know I am a fighter. But at he end of the day I can't decide when is my time. I haven't really told many people about my surgery but I will prepare notes that I leave in a box under my bed for the what if's. I have certain people that I would like to step up and help with my kids. I also have special things I would like my children to know about as they grow up so I think a letter and journal are fitting for them. I also want my husband to know how mucho love him and to have that letter as a reminder for the rest of his life. Hopefully his long long life!</div><div><br /></div><div>I am doing this surgery to be healthy. I know it is only a matter of time before my body starts to give out. No one can be as healthy as I have been at this weight forever. So I must do something to to dieting isn't working!</div><div><br /></div><div>So if you are reading this and believe in the power of prayer please pray for me and all the hospital staff who work with me that God watches over us. I know I am in good hands with my surgeon.</div><div><br /></div><div>I asked y husband is he worried he said no they have. One so far with this surgery I know you will be ok. I know in my heart I will be ok and no,after what happens to keep in mind why I did this. Pain may not last forever and I will be starting the life I always dreamed of.</div><div><br /></div><div>Michelle</div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-24704309867903141012012-02-24T09:17:00.000-08:002012-02-24T09:17:37.340-08:00Goal List and StuffSo I have Sleep Apnea and that helps with getting the surgery approved. I snore....loud my kids say.....but hopefully I won't forever. I am at such peace with my decision to have this surgery.ni look forward to using this tool to help me keep my weight off and maintain it. Sure I know I can lose it but I can't maintain it I need some help!<div><br /></div><div>I have found some great articles, blogs, and forums for weight loss surgery. They are so helpful in seeing the good, the bad, and truthfully the ugly. I have to clarify ugly being wound care, drains, things of that nature not really ugly but a fact of life with the surgery. I know I will have pain but I know it won't last forever I will feel better one day and I will be healthy. All worth the few days weeks if necessary to heal and get healthy! Someone remind me of that statement when I am whining about the pain. HAHA</div><div><br /></div><div>My kids are hysterical I explained mommy is having surgery for weight loss....every time I go to a dr visit my youngest sees me and says mommy what happened your not skinny yet! I tell her it is a process. </div><div><br /></div><div>I decided to make a Liston goals for after surgery....something I can check off and will surely check off each one.</div><div>Fit in a size 16 pants baggy</div><div>Fit Ina size 14 baggy</div><div>Fit Ina size 12 baggy</div><div>Fit in a size 10 baggy</div><div>Get into a size 8 and finally be a single digit!</div><div>Ride on a roller coaster with my daughter </div><div>Buys pair of tap shoes and dance with my daughter</div><div>Run a 5k with all of my kids</div><div>Run a sprint triathalon</div><div>Run a half marathon in under 3 hours</div><div>Run a marathon</div><div>Do a half ironman.....no desire to ever do a full but I want to do a half by the time I am 40</div><div>I want to own a little black dress</div><div>For my 15th anniversary I want to wear my dream wedding gown and renew my vows with my husband</div><div>Wear skinny jeans and a paid of high boots</div><div><br /></div><div>I am sure I will think of more but I just have one final one....to be in the normal range for BMI!!!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>I am so excited for the future I can't wait to start living my life to its fullest potential. </div><div><br /></div><div>Here's to finding the skinny under my fat!</div><div><br /></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-72892345504217732582012-02-03T05:04:00.000-08:002012-02-03T05:15:39.560-08:00My journey so far ;-)Hey I consider every day of my life a journey so here is what has been going on. I went and my with the nutritionist she was great and I feel so informed on what I should and should not be eating. I will not buy 100 calories packs or frozen diet meals again. I found this great blog Bariatric Foodie LOVE LOVE LOVE it! I am going away this weekend and I am working on my recipe binder. I will eat the same things as my family and they will eat healthy with me. My kids won't have to worry about facing major surgery like I am. <div>I have started to incorporate some eating practices for after surgery.</div><div>No chewing gum....psych dr said chew Altoids yay</div><div>No liquids with dinner stopping a half hour before and not drinking until a half hour later.</div><div>Chewing my food to a purée....I have to say the food really does taste better....I was eating so fast I don't think I actually tasted the food before.</div><div>I am back in the gym and I have a new found respect for my body. I know what I am capable of...GREATNESS LOL...but it is trapped in this shell. I can't wait to be free of this excess fat and get moving but until that times will keep moving forward with my working out change in diet and excited feeling for when I am on the other side. I never thought I would sayi want to be on the loser bench haha!</div><div>So I did 1 weight check of 4 months last one is April 27!!!!</div><div>I went to the psychiatrist that was fun haha</div><div>I met with the nutritionist and learned a ton.</div><div>Tuesday I go for my sleep study. I work in the middle of the night delivering papers I am looking forward to a full nights sleep.</div><div>Everyone so far has said they will recommend me for gastric bypass!!!!!!</div><div>All I have left are confirming my PCP sent over my last 2 years weights. Plus 3 more months of weight checks by my dr.</div><div>I love the support I have found online. Many people are not happy with my choice but I am!!!!</div><div>Here's to finding the Skinny Under My Fat!!!</div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-40184863278098911772012-01-26T10:40:00.000-08:002012-01-26T10:45:35.814-08:00Gastric Bypass....Oh My!Ok so I have had enough! I have thought about this surgery for the past 10 years. I finally took the first step and I called a Dr that my friend used. I went to his seminar in September but put it on the back burner but recently I have felt down in the dumps and decided I needed to do something about my weight. So I contacted him and I have the following!<br />I saw the Dr yesterday Jan 25<br />Jan 26th met with the General Practitioner I have to see her 4x every 30 days she checks my weight and she gave me a guide of 2100 calories a day and work out 4-5 times a week no more.<br />Mon I go to the hospital for EKG, Upper GI, Xrays, Blood Work<br />Tues I go back to the hospital to meet with a nutritionist<br />Wed I go for my Psy evaluation<br />Feb 7th I go for my Sleep Study.<br /><br />I saw my old Primary Care Dr this am about my past 2 years weights they need copies of his charts.<br /><br />Here are my thoughts I will do all the testing and I have 4 months with the Dr and Dietician to lose weight. I am 285 and I figure in 4 months I should following the guidelines be able to lose 40 lbs in 4 months. 10 lbs a month the Dr said is good. So if I do lose the 40 lbs I will not do the surgery. I need to see the scale moving in the right direction and with the Drs help I think I can do it.<br /><br />Worst case as the Dr said to me yesterday this is just a tool you need to do work for it too. He did tell me he thinks I should be able to get down to a size 5 in a year give or take! LOL he probably says that to all the girls!<br /><br />I have started a youtube channel <a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/SkinnyUnderMyFat">http://www.youtube.com/user/SkinnyUnderMyFat</a> I am going to blog my journey and daily activities on youtube as well!<br /><br />Here's to finding the skinny under my fat!<br />MichelleMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-36875093622693761702012-01-23T09:19:00.001-08:002012-01-23T09:19:51.088-08:00Just Zip My Mouth Shut!Seriously I have some major issues. I don't feel like working out anymore. I am eating whatever I want. I got WW meals to eat for the week lunch and dinner.....guess what my 4 kids just ate 4 WW meals! I just dont know what is wrong with my mindset at the moment. I am going to the gym with my friend tomorrow she will hold me accountable. I need to do this with people I can't do this alone I know I can't. <br />
I have a 115 appt on Wednesday with a gastric bypass dr. I can't believe I even made the appt. but I am going to see what options they have and maybe meet with a nutritionist to figure this weight loss out! Well not in my case weight loss but weight gain or weight staying the same. <br />
I used to be so excited about this what is wrong with me??????Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-27514270063196005902012-01-11T08:02:00.001-08:002012-01-11T08:02:53.785-08:00Work outI Did it I made it to the gym. I am going to admit I hate going to the gym alone. I like going w my workout buddy and she has been feeling under the weather. I thought ok just wait to go another day but my head was saying gogogogogogo so I went! It is insane how out of shape I am from where I was......not that I was a top notch athlete but burning 600 calories was a chore for me. So today she can't go again and I am fighting with myself again!!!!!! When will I learn get the balls to just go alone? It isn't like I don't know anyone else at the gym it is full of friends but she challenges me pushes me to work harder. She says I do the same for her but she lost 150 lbs and has kept it off I think she uses me as a chAllenge to not go back to wear she was more motivation!<br />
So yesterday I did the elliptical for 20 minutes the bike for 6 miles and the arc trainer for 5 minutes I didn't feel comfortable on it. I felt like my arms and legs were not in sync.<br />
I am going to go back today and try to start couch to 5 k. I am going to do this I know I can find the skinny under my fat!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-5382581268177886982012-01-08T13:52:00.001-08:002012-01-08T13:52:26.633-08:00New Year New Me!So my hubby got me a new ipad for the holidays. I plan on using this to update everyone with my meal plan and weightless.<br />
Monday am I will post my weigh in<br />
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So when I was going up to NJ this past June I had to get a cute outfit for the New Kids on the Block/Backstreet Boys concert and I was up a size....so not cool. So I told myself girl you need to do something. I started to go back to the gym and promised myself I will come back again tomorrow. I spent the last month well 3 weeks of it going once a week. Well this past week I went back and stayed back. It was great to be back with friends and working out like I need to be. I have been the exact same the last 3 weeks at weight watchers. Seriously I haven't been doing much but following the points plan. I stocked up on 28 Lean Cuisine meals so I can use the meals. BUT I have been talking to a trainer in the gym and she eats clean I am going to try it. So today we bought 6 packages of chicken breast and I cooked them with seasoning and I am going to eat Chicken and a cup of brown rice at night. I bought EAS Chocolate Shake mixes to drink and make a PB Smoothie that I am told tastes like a Peanut Butter Cup YUMMMM<br />
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So I am doing my first Tri this Sept 11. I have started a new program in the gym where I swim and do a swim class. It is aqua Trea and Shed and it pushes me to the max. We swim laps at 50%, 70-80% and FULL OUT! It is nice because the trainer is great she really pushes me and I love swimming. The triathalon is not a big one 250 Meter Swim, 7 mile bike ride, 2 mile run. But hello it is a Tri! LOL Who would have thought I would do this? Not me and it seems as crazy as me running 13.1 miles but I did it so this too I will do.<br />
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I am going to keep myself accountable here, with Weight Watchers and in the gym. I hope you continue to follow me and hopefully maybe I can motivate you too! Join me as I continue to strive to find the skinny under my fat!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-37231661115201721902011-02-14T09:17:00.001-08:002013-03-02T09:30:44.855-08:00Valentine's DayOk so today is a day for love right? I have lots of love a wonderful husband, 4 amazing kids, and a great group of friends and family that I love and I feel the love back. But every Valentine's Day since I started my journey on July 12, 2008 I always wished I could wear a little black dress. Little meaning size 8 or 6 LOL. That is still not happening. I thought what am I doing wrong? What else can I do? I had a realization.....I CAN'T DO THIS ALONE! So I am going to the Dr. on the 24th and I'm going to talk her to about medication to curb my appetite, also about a nutritionist. I think I need someone who can look at my exercise routine and my eating and tell me what I need to do.<br />
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Working out well I ran 10 miles yes I ran 10 miles last weekend in 2 hrs 17 minutes. I have 11 miles to do tomorrow I can't even begin to imagine me running 11 miles. All in anticipation for my half marathon on the 27th of this month. So excited!!! But I told my husband yesterday for a 240+ woman running I think I do a decent job. I said imagine when I find the skinny under my fat I am going to be a machine LOL. He agreed what else could he say.....<br />
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But I feel confident in my ability to kick this dreaful state that I am in. I am going to find the skinny under my fat and trust me I know it is in here. I know that I have muscles that are growing and that my body will eventually be the best it has ever been. I won't lose any of my positive energy. It took me 35 years to get to where I was if it takes me half that time to get it off I will be ok with that as long as the scale keeps going down. Rome wasn't built in a day!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-73374530223651428302011-01-11T10:26:00.001-08:002013-03-02T09:30:27.361-08:00Run Run and more RunningWell I have a have a half marathon coming up in February and another in March and to give myself a break a 5K in April. I know who would have ever thought that I would be doing this stuff? Sometimes when I run I start to cry I admit it not from the pain but from the thought that I am actually doing this! I love running outside vs. the treadmill but will do the treadmill for 3 mile days. A friend posted a video of a guy who was really heavy and he started running. In a year he became skinny, he did a half marthon, a marathon, and he even did a ironman. Can I let you in on a secret. I am training for these 3 races but in the back of my head I am also working on training for a half Ironman. I am a pretty good swimmer and you swim a little over 2 miles, ride 56 miles and run 13.1 miles all in one day. I don't think I could ever do a full ironman 4 mile swim, 112 miles bike ride and 26.2 run but who knows. All I know is I want my kids to see my cross the finish line and be like wow mommy did something really hard and know they can do it too.<br />
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My 2nd oldest is a athlete she asked to run the half marathon with me. My February one is not a official 1/2 marathon. Finances got in the way and I can't afford the Princess Marathon this year so that day I am going to run 13.1 and I will have her join me for the last 3 miles. She is 9 and a gymnast and trains 5 days a week...I bet she could do all 13.1 miles with me LOL. I hope one day all of my kids will want to run with me and we can be a running family.<br />
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So this week I am running 25 miles. I have a long run on Sunday 9 miles. I am a bit scared of going that far. The longest I ever went was 7 miles but hey what is 2 more miles? LOL<br />
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I have gotten back on the bandwagon with Weight Watchers and I am doing slimfast shakes too! So the scale has been moving down I hope to see a 10 lb loss total soon. I am so ready to find the skinny under my fat. I know under all these layers a hot momma is waiting to bust out!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-22103469090652203782010-12-29T06:32:00.000-08:002010-12-29T06:34:11.382-08:00Facebook 2011 Weight Loss Challenge GroupHi Everyone!<br /><a href="http://http//www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/pages/2011-Weight-Loss-Challenge/117861781618165">http://http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/pages/2011-Weight-Loss-Challenge/117861781618165</a><br />Join us at the Challenge we will do a monthly challenge on this facebook page. Kinda like the Biggest Loser Challenge. We will have a winner monthly with the highest % of weight loss.<br /><br />Come on over but please don't mention my blog it is a secret I am not ready to share with the world my weight yet!<br />Thanks and I hope that you can come on over and join us. Also share with your friends. January's Challenge will have a cut off to join on Dec 31st at midnight.<br />Each month will be a new challenge.<br /><br />Let's get healthy and skinny together!<br />MichelleMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-27283066498849673782010-10-19T10:11:00.000-07:002010-10-19T10:14:58.610-07:00I Lost 10% Body Fat!!!!Well I have been working out doing my usual body pump, spin, intense, and sometimes body combat but I stopped with the bike. I decided today to run 3 miles and after that get on the bike. So I ran today 3 miles got on the bike for 15 miles. I did 18 miles today. I really noticed my legs were different last time I did a big push with the bike so I am hoping that will help me.<br /><br />But in other news in June I went for a body fat test. It was 50% body fat well I went again this past Friday and I was down to 40% body fat. The trainer said that my body was doing what it needed and the scale was up 4 lbs she said that is normal because muscle weighs more so it is working!!!<br /><br />I am so excited and can't wait to find the skinny girl under all these layers of fat.<br />This week will be lots of running, spin, body pump, and riding the stationary bike.<br />Loving Fall weather!!!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-83421869288515713502010-10-06T12:01:00.000-07:002010-10-06T12:03:17.612-07:00Amazing Running Video MUST SEE!<a href="http://www.active.com/running/Articles/8-Tips-to-Start-Your-Weight-Loss-Journey.htm?cmp=18-1015&utm_source=sendible&utm_medium=feed">http://www.active.com/running/Articles/8-Tips-to-Start-Your-Weight-Loss-Journey.htm?cmp=18-1015&utm_source=sendible&utm_medium=feed</a><br /><br />The above is a link to a guy named Ben's weight loss tips but at the end on page 2 is a video it is a must see and have your music up. Makes me cry everytime I see it.<br />I hope that you read it and are as inspired as I was.<br /><br />I ran and I am gonna keep on running! Today 4 more miles!!!! Was suppose to be 5 but who do I think I am Super Woman? LOLMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-15372277226548849802010-10-05T10:52:00.000-07:002010-10-05T10:58:09.343-07:00I am getting into this jogging thingI have a new name for it I am not a runner I am more of a jogger so I am going to say I jog. I dropped the kids in my childcare area at the gym and took off. Just me myself and I and I loved every 52 minutes of it. Yes my friends I ran (jogged) 4 miles in 52 minutes. I was so happy with myself. I really do jog quite a bit more then I thought I could. I challenged myself to jog up the hill not walk...really how much fast is my jog vs. walk I would think LOL<br /><br />I was running to Kohls in town and back and I was thinking hmmm here I am running to Kohls to one day shop in a smaller size...one day I wanna run and shop hehe! I love listening to music I want to, thinking all by myself, and not having a care in the world.....except looking for critters.<br /><br />I have been good eating wise today I ate a fiber 1 and for lunch I had a apple and peanut butter. I am going to actually eat a WW lunch after I finish this for a complete lunch. I am not very hungry but know I have to eat.<br /><br />What activity did you get in today?Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06937719392988465669noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5792548812526475962.post-26454880578378769202010-10-03T17:27:00.000-07:002013-03-02T09:30:03.552-08:006 Miles RAN...I did it I ran 6 miles<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEzoP9EZJMzUEzy0W9cW6RnbOPmBBPtpCflQqS00IVte0UsHq5iytaV2PB3Y6AWxvj2QPWV4q-FeNA_S9d9vnjULyLXLlXEG17MOBeBBHjNpChMbKMNyAaHhskWPLW1cTNrKVtbqEwS4Y/s1600/MyasMeetNRG2010+110.JPG"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5524180674034455906" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEzoP9EZJMzUEzy0W9cW6RnbOPmBBPtpCflQqS00IVte0UsHq5iytaV2PB3Y6AWxvj2QPWV4q-FeNA_S9d9vnjULyLXLlXEG17MOBeBBHjNpChMbKMNyAaHhskWPLW1cTNrKVtbqEwS4Y/s320/MyasMeetNRG2010+110.JPG" style="display: block; height: 214px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 320px;" /></a> My sock casualty and my pedi needs to be done again!<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkHzeMpA4MYSzpuhljsLP7GaAggfpdHdGrqde3RgJISG2DTYUgsdjRl9n0qAdjaGTUtdHj3et4OxP4QZkqXGCNinGd8v37fAHG0opqydzMrzQd74wjUB5qIJeugYHdF9hTfuyk3KWtG4w/s1600/MyasMeetNRG2010+108.JPG"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5524180657291072610" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkHzeMpA4MYSzpuhljsLP7GaAggfpdHdGrqde3RgJISG2DTYUgsdjRl9n0qAdjaGTUtdHj3et4OxP4QZkqXGCNinGd8v37fAHG0opqydzMrzQd74wjUB5qIJeugYHdF9hTfuyk3KWtG4w/s320/MyasMeetNRG2010+108.JPG" style="display: block; height: 214px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 320px;" /></a> Before the run<br />
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Ok my friends I did it I ran 6 miles I started around 815 and finished at 10 so a hour and 45 minutes not great but I DID IT. </div>
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I started out with my girlfriends who one lost 150 lbs weight loss and diet only in about 2 years, the other is on the verge of 100 she is at 96 lbs gone in 2 years. I am down 80 lbs hoping to catch up to them LOL. In weight loss and running. Because by the half mile mark they were off and I was still struggling. I had my Ipod a flat course and nature to inspire me and well cause a bit of fear to. You see I am petrified of reptiles snakes....lizards......worms....whatever creepy crawly things you can throw at me....a frog whatever! LOL Well this is the American Tobacco Trail and on each side they have swamps on each side. I ran to the half a mile and got to that mile marker and walked. The goal was run a half mile walk 2 mins and run again. Well I was on my own didn't want to meet slimy snake alone and figured the quicker I did this the quicker I could get home. Did I mention I got up on a Sunday morning at 6am for this?<br />
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In the book I mentioned earlier she said mile 2 was her hardest. I have to say that was my hardest too. I didn't want to give up, didn't want to walk, and I just wanted to run and enjoy myself. So I did I RAN PEOPLE I RAN for the last 4 miles. I stopped when I went under 1 tunnel, crossed 3 roads, and 3 short bridges over the swampy areas. I would say maybe total that would be a quarter of a mile if that that I walked after mile 2.<br />
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I have pictures here for you to see my before and after. It was so much fun. I found when I was like hmmm maybe I should take a break that my other part of my body was saying don't stop if you do you might not start again. I was fearful that it would hurt to much to stop. My body would just cramp up I thought. I was also scared of not finishing until 12 LOL so I had to keep going. My run is more like a fast persons walk and I swear I lost a inch for every mile as my face was so close to the ground from me hunched over running. I know I am suppose to be upright HEHE.<br />
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It is a sand trail so I had to stop once to get the sand out of my shoes. I felt like I was running with half of the trail in my left foot LOL. So I wanted to share with you 2 signs I saw on the trail today.</div>
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<li>This part of the trail is managed by the NC Parks and Reserve area. Be warned hunting occurs on these premises. (oh really could someone have told the fat chick before she was running about this? Is it dear hunting season? Someone could easily mistake me for a bear. Note to self wear bright pink or yellow next time not dark colors....oh and next time is next Sunday....I will do this trail weekly!)</li>
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<li>For the next 300 yards be aware of golf balls! WHAT seriously in this woodsy area and swamp land people golf? Ok great so pick up the pace so you don't get knocked out by a little white ball that so wouldn't be cool! It is only 300 yards run fast like a frozen margarita is waiting for you at yard 301.</li>
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I seriously have to thank the 2 signs above, the fellow smiling faces (probably thinking this girl is still running because people saw me 2 times in some cases), the fear of the snakes and reptile friends who made me run and just look down never anywhere else, the 2 creepy guys on the bikes that I swore were trying to jump me, my 2 running friends who inspired me every step on this trail to one day be like them, and most of all to my husbands Ipod.<br />
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Drop it like it's hot came on his Ipod of course I was feeling full of myself so I dropped it like I was hot! Imagine the visual people. I was feeling good. I heard my daughters Miley song I can't be tamed...no one is holding me back anymore I ran 6 miles! I had so much fun by myself this morning running for 6 miles. Hmmm next week maybe I will say I am doing 12 and get to run for 2 and spend 2 hours alone just hanging out in my car by the trail with the doors locked and windows up so no reptiles creep in. Come on people I am a mom of 4 I need a break sometimes.<br />
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Oh I have to mention one casualty. My comfy cotton Hanes socks which I have been my friend for so long are bye bye. While running I put a hole in the big toe of my left foot with its cute black pedicure and some of the polish came off grrrr. Runners don't have cute toes do they or tell me the secrets LOL. Whatever the case take this as a warning I hear they have running socks. Invest in them even if they are 35.00 for one pair it is so worth it!<br />
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THE PICS WILL NOT UPLOAD SO I WILL TRY TOMORROW TO DO THE PICS AGAIN!</div>
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